Wednesday, June 20, 2012


Whew. Life has been crazy. Emerie is 4 weeks old today, she will be one month old on Saturday. Crazy. Time is flying, a little too quickly if you ask me. She has changed so much in the past month. She is the most amazing gift! We love her to pieces. She has really started showing personality lately. She is starting to coo and smile and she has even begun to follow things with her eyes. She loves her playmat and grabs on to the toys that hang from it and gets really excited and makes tons of cute baby sounds. She eats like a champ (and latches on like a barracuda!) and goes to the doctor tomorrow for a weight check. We suspect she is between 9-10 pounds already! Her daddy and I are so proud of her little accomplishments so far.. she rolled over from belly to back today! So advanced for her age ;-) She also loves her baths (most of the time). We are so in love with her! We had pictures taken this week and she screamed bloody murder through the whole photo shoot. Thankfully our photographer was so patient and was able to get some good shots.  Here are a few that I love!
 This foot photo is my favorite (and is now my new blog header!).
 Proof that she cried through the photo shoot:
She's still beautiful even when she cries! =) 

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Friday, June 8, 2012

Emerie's Birth Story- Part 2

Right as the anesthesiologist came in, the first words out of my mouth were, you are my favorite person in this hospital right now. I then proceeded to tell him that there was no way that I was going to be able to hold still through a contraction that was definitely going to happen while he was administering the epidural. He told me not to worry about it, that I could do jumping jacks while he gave it to me and it wouldn't affect anything. I was happy that they didn't go through the list of possible side effects with me before administering it. I thought I would be nervous about getting it but I was in so much pain that I didn't feel worried or concerned about the epidural/needle/side effects. The only painful part of the epidural was the burning sensation that radiated across my back. But that feeling didn't last more than a few seconds and it was nothing compared to the pain of contractions! It was around 10:30 a.m. at this time so I settled into bed and the nurses came in to sit with me and monitor the baby. I'm not sure how much time passed but suddenly the nurse made me turn onto my side, and a whole team of people rushed in. I heard the phrase, "we have a baby in the 80's" and then the oxygen mask was put on my face. I had no idea what was going on. As I was laying there trying to figure it out, I heard a code blue being called on the intercom of the hospital. I began to panic at this point and looked up at my husband to see that he looked calm and was even smiling. I realized then that the code blue had nothing to do with me or the baby and a few minutes later everything was back to normal. They said that the epidural caused my blood pressure to drop (which is normal) and my drop in blood pressure caused Emerie's heartbeat to drop as well. So they had me on my side and put something in my IV (I think) to bring things back up. That was a scary moment but the nurses were fantastic. They never left my side all day and even though we rotated through six or seven different nurses that day, they were all equally fantastic. I laid around in bed the rest of the day and chatted with the nurses, played cards with hubs, called my mom and dad a few times to update them, and tried to rest even though I knew I wouldn't be able to fall asleep. I was checked periodically to see if I was still progressing and though it took awhile, I was still making progress (without the help of any drugs like pitocin). I was thankful that my doctor wasn't a fan of catheters so twice the nurses inserted an in and out catheter to empty my bladder and that was it. Hubs was by my side the whole time (minus a time or two when he went to update everyone in the waiting room and grab something to eat).
As the baby progressed further and further into the birth canal and my contractions held steady at 2 to 3 minutes apart, her heart rate kept dropping. The nurses kept turning me from side to side to get her heart rate back up and after each contraction, she seemed to recover nicely. Finally around 10 p.m. my doctor came in and checked me and told me that it was time to push. She expressed concern that perhaps Emerie's umbilical cord was wrapped and that was what was causing her heart rate to drop during my contractions. She got me started on pushing and then let the nurses take over. I was surprised that she didn't stay through all of the pushing but I later realized that some women push for hours before the baby is born so I guess that's why she didn't stay in the room the whole time. After pushing for an hour, my doctor came back in and told me that she didn't like that the baby's heart rate was dropping much lower than before and said that we really needed to work to get her out. Everyone could see the top of her head but she hadn't cleared my pubic bone. Hubs was great through all of this. He held one leg while the nurse held the other and they all coached me through pushing. It took some time to get the hang of exactly how they wanted me to push. Finally my doctor said, okay we need to try to use the vacuum to assist or we need to do a c-section. Her heart rate is getting low and we need to get her out of there. She asked me which I wanted to do and I told her I had no idea, I just wanted what was best for the baby. She told me that if we used the vacuum and it didn't work or if it slipped off more than three times, we had to stop and proceed with a c-section. She also said a c-section after using the vacuum was more dangerous. I had no idea what to do at this point and my doctor quickly made the decision to use the vacuum. She said that Emerie was far enough down that she thought we could get her out if I could push as hard as possible through a contraction. I will add that everyone kept letting me tell them when I had a contraction and needed to push and it was hard to distinguish when I had contractions because all I could feel was some pressure. The doctor told me to let her know when I felt one and they quickly broke the bed down and got the vacuum ready. I told her I felt the need to push and I pushed with everything that I had in me because I knew that if I didn't get Emerie out, things might become more dangerous and more complicated. The contraction ended up being a long one, and I was able to push for 4 counts of ten in a row. With the assistance of the vacuum and my pushing, Emerie's head and neck came out.
 I still had my eyes closed and was pushing with all of my might so I only vaguely remember this part. The doctor unwrapped the umbilical cord from her neck and then her shoulders and the rest of her body came right out. They clamped her cord and placed her on my chest. It was the most beautiful moment of my life. I cried tears of joy while repeating over and over again how beautiful she was. She was of course screaming and it was the most joyous sound! They suctioned her mouth and nose while I held her and they wiped some of the goo off of her. I kissed her sweet face and continued to cry! While all of this wonderfulness was going on, I vaguely noticed that the placenta was being delivered and only caught a glimpse of it. And then I heard the doctor assess the damage to my body and she began the stitching process (TMI, I know but I've been honest so far, why stop now?). At this point I could feel a little bit of what was going on but I didn't care because I had my baby in my arms and that was all that mattered. Hubs immediately began taking pictures of her on his phone and text everyone who was waiting in the waiting room. He was a proud dad the second she was born and couldn't wait to show the world his daughter! After the doctor finished her business with me she hugged and congratulated us and I thanked her profusely for helping us get the vaginal delivery that we had wanted. I wanted a vaginal delivery because I wanted that sweet baby on my chest and in my arms the moment she was born and in our area after a c-section they don't allow the mother to hold the baby until in recovery. I have always looked forward to that first moment when the baby is placed on their mother's chest and the bonding begins instantly. I was so fortunate to have that moment. I was able to breastfeed her right away and then I finally let the nurses clean/weigh and measure her while the other nurses helped me get cleaned up. She was born at 11:31 p.m. on her due date, May 23. She weighed 7 pounds and 13 ounces and was 19.5 inches long. She has blue eyes, her momma's ears and brown hair, and her daddy's long fingers and toes. She is the love of our lives.

The past two and half weeks have been wonderful and I can't wait to share her pictures and progress with you!

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Emerie's Birth Story- Part I

On Tuesday, May 22, the day before Emerie's due date, I felt no different at work. In fact I kept telling everyone that she was going to be a week late (because everyone says first babies are late) and that I would see them tomorrow. I got a few things done at work and left my sub plans in place "just in case." I went home and decided that I would try walking again in hopes that it would speed things along. I hadn't had any contractions (aside from Braxton Hicks) and I hadn't noticed a bloody show/mucous plug so I assumed that Emerie was staying put for awhile. I went for a long walk and came home and ate some dinner. Hubs was at a softball game so I decided I would just relax and watch TV. Around ten I went upstairs to get ready for bed and I felt something wet (warning: TMI ahead). I sat down to go to the bathroom and there it was, the mucous plug/bloody show. I got really excited because I knew that labor could be starting (although I also knew it could still be days away). Hubs came through the door and I shared the news with him. He was super excited and asked me when we should head to the hospital. I told him not to get ahead of himself, that it could still take days. So we got ready for bed and I laid down but I knew I was too excited/anxious to sleep. I started feeling some small contractions not long after I laid down so I decided to go downstairs and watch some TV and time them to see if they were coming regularly. They were not too painful, I couldn't sleep through them but I could lay there and breathe through them. They started coming around 7-9 minutes apart. As the night went on they started to get more painful and I started to have to walk and breathe through them. I took a shower thinking the water might help and I figured it would be the last shower I would have before meeting our sweet girl. One of my contractions was so painful in the shower that I told hubs as soon as I got out that he needed to get up and get ready! He got everything together and in the car and sat down to eat a bowl of cereal. I was nervous about going to the hospital because I didn't want to be sent home with false labor! But I hurried hubs along because the contractions were painful and every two to three minutes. We only live 5 minutes or so from the hospital but it seemed like the longest ride ever! We checked in at triage in the ER because it was 6 a.m. and Labor and Delivery didn't open until 8. I was wheeled upstairs to L&D, weighed, and given a gown to put on. They checked me and I was one centimeter dilated. Blah. I had been one centimeter for weeks. The doctor said she would check again in two hours and that would determine whether or not I was in active labor. They checked the baby's heart rate and clocked my contractions at 2-3 minutes apart. The pain was becoming unbearable and the nurse let me get in the jacuzzi to labor for awhile. That was the only small relief I felt, and even then it felt like someone was stabbing me over and over in the stomach with a knife. After two hours of suffering, the doctor checked me again and I had progressed to 4 centimeters! She told me I was definitely staying and I felt so relieved. I labored away for awhile, trying to cope with the pain but it became so intense that I finally asked the nurse if it was too soon for an epidural. She said that it wasn't and that I could have it any time I wanted. I decided to go ahead and get it, I was miserable and I needed some relief. Man am I glad that I got that epidural. What a lifesaver. I went from anxious, stressed, in major pain, to relaxed, happy, and excited for the birth of our sweet girl. The epidural didn't feel the way I thought it would. I could still feel my legs and wiggle my toes. I just assumed the epidural would make me feel paralyzed but it didn't. It just provided sweet relief! So we settled in for what would turn out to be a very long day! More to come!